Say what?!?

Last week someone said something to me that I still can't get over.

Here's how the conversation went:

Her: How's the house coming along?
Me: Hoping it's ready in time for the move-out in 2 weeks! Totally overwhelming!
Her: Well. I'm just SOOOOOOO happy for you! (overexcited beyond words happy) 
Me: Really??? Why????
Her: Cause your house was so so so so so so so so............................... (feels bad telling you)
Me: Gross??
Her: Well yah, I just didn't want to tell you, but now that you've said it - well your house was really gross and totally needed to be redone.
Me: OH. Thanks.

I've decided that people just don't think before they speak.
She wasn't trying to be mean.
I know that.
I think she thought that because she was my friend it was OK.
But listen.
No one can ever insult your home, kids, or hubs except you.
Ain't that the truth.

Look, truth be told
My house was gross.
Totally needed to get redone.
And I would still be living in that mess had Hashem (G-D) not decided that my life needed a makeover.

But there was a cost.
There's always a cost.
A lot of suffering went around this year
Not going to bore you all with the details
But just know that my family and company took a lot of hits.

I'm telling you this story because I feel bad.
I know that many people can't afford to redo their homes.
I know many people wish they could have brand new kitchens.
Redone bathrooms and freshly painted bedrooms.
I get it, because that was me for the past 12 years.

I know what it's like living on a budget.
Trying to live within a means that is non-existent.

I have been feeling very torn.
Wanting to show you all the construction pictures
And not wanting to show you at all.
I would never want someone to think that I am bragging.
No one wants to see pictures of your brand new kitchen when they're living in a tiny apartment.

But here's the deal.
This is what I do.
I'm a.......
Colorist
Designer
Artist

I want to take you on my journey.

I want to show you all
The decisions I made - And why I made them.
Budget friendly decorating ideas
Color palette painting concepts
And so much more.

With the utmost sensitivity.

This all happened to me for a reason
So I am going to embrace it.
And hope that if you love what I've done
Perhaps you'll choose me to help you when the times is right.


Till next time!
Abbey